Rejection - The last thing on earth i want to feel

 

This is the worst period of my life. I had all this gigantic acceptance as a kid, and all of a sudden there was this monumental rejection.

I always define myself as an outgoing person. A happy go lucky one, spilling out my life's tragic stories to anyone is not a big deal to me. I always tend to talk much that in the same manner, I didn't realize that my talkativeness is starting to be harmful..most especially, to the ones so close to me...

I never noticed that they are all starting to be cold to me..at first, I didn't bother it, because like all people, they also have mood swings, but that mood swings didn't swing back to normal anymore. they do not approach me as often anymore, they keep distance to me when I'm with them, and they do not confide things to me anymore...that's the time I got aware to it..they're all starting to hate me...

One of them approached me, and he said, "We like you for being prank, but sometimes, you have to control yourself from talking too much". and that caught me. For so long, I have been like this to all of my friends, but it was not a big deal to them..until I finally realized that what my friends said was somehow, really true. It seems that It's very easy for them to tell me what to do, but they just don't understand at all. If only I could let them look up the definition of rejection in the dictionary, get really comfortable with it, and then maybe they can go into what I'm feeling right now.

Now i believe in a saying that all people are your friends...unless they prove it..

It's ok..as I always say. Though I'm not familiar to this feeling, I know that I can always get over it, as what I always do before, because if I don't, I will not grow as a person..for human beings, like plants, grow in the soil of acceptance..not in the atmosphere of rejection.

I really wish I was less of a thinking man and more of a fool not afraid of rejection. But I'm not. and that makes me hate myself at times. But rejection won't make me a worthless person, because I take it as someone blowing a bugle in my ear to wake me up and get going, rather than retreat. I cannot please all people, and I do not plan to do so, because I believe that one way or another, there would always be at least one or two (million) out there, who will interest me and my inborn personality, or shall we say, my "attitude" and would still like me for being me.

I don't have to care for those persons who damnly hate me coz there are a lot of people who loves me and they're worth more minding than the first.

I think that have to believe in my destiny; that I will succeed, I will meet a lot of rejection and it is not always a straight path, there will be detours - so I just have to enjoy the view. And I hope that you do so.

The life of a single Lady

“Now, i have no fear of being alone with myself. i just realized that i don’t need a boyfriend to be completely happy with my life.”

For the past two years, ten months and two days, i have been living my life with that saying. Now, i’m living my life again the same way as it was before. I eat when i’m hungry, i drink when i’m thirsty, and i flirt when i feel like flirting.

I admit, feeling all alone at first is so absurd, but when you manage to overcome it, you won’t have to think of being alone anymore. If you’ve got a friend, you will never feel that you’re totaly dumped, for a friend is someone who is there for you when he’d rather be somewhere else. Friends are there to help you put back all the pieces that was shattered. they help you cry out all the pain but they also help you smile until all the aches are gone, and I’m so lucky that at least, i’ve got some of what you call “friends”.

The life of a woman doesn’t only revolve around a guy. there are so many things that can make a woman happy, even if he’s not with a guy. She can eat many chocolates as many as she can, she can also but the whole shopping mall for a day for as long as her purse allows her to. She can call her friends to go to her house and have a pillow fight all night from dawn till dusk. She can travel the whole world and find better and sweet men whenever she wants to, and lastly, she can go to the top of the mountain and scream out all the things that she longed to say but never ever have said it before, or worst, she can sleep with a guy she likes and keep the baby to her without even having a plan to get married with the guy. and there she would find the real essence of being a woman, and the best thing that can make a woman happy- to be a mother.

To all single ladies out there who are still in “little too not over him” stage, all I can say to you guys is LET GO!. because if they really are into you, they shoud’ve called you the night they let you go and begged you to come back again. Do not dwell in the past, but do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment and you’ll realize how wonderful life can be when you’re a single.